my reality.

marrying a man in the army was not a part of my childhood fantasies.
i, like most young girls, imagined waking up to my mystery husband's smiling face every morning.
well there is no mystery to who my husband will be.
i've found the man who completes me and we've said our vows.
but sometimes i will still have to wake up all alone.
its my reality.
the man i married also made a vow to serve his country.
a vow that will sometimes supersede his "i do."
this means sacrificing his time and maybe his life.
there are times when i will wonder "what if he doesn't come home?"
not because i don't want him to...just simply because he might not.
my fantasies were wonderful while they lasted but they have been put aside so i can embrace my reality.
life isn't always fair.
bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people.
military life can seem even more unfair.
our loved ones spend months away.
contact can be limited.
wives all around the world wake up alone,
doing their part in the war on terrorism.
and sometimes our loved ones don't come home.
yes, this is the reality i have chosen.
i've had people tell me that i'm crazy.
and others have shown gratitude for my strength and sacrifice.
all i know is that God blessed me with jesse.
he is more than i could have ever hoped for.

i love my husband, he loves me, and we both love God.
for us this is enough to sustain us during the obstacles of life.
even military life...