poetic.

i love writing poems. i have over eighty i've already written. shauna told me at the last wives of faith meeting that i should write some poetry that has to do with being a military wife. i want to, i think its a wonderful idea. i just can't seem to come to find the inspiration. uhg. it doesn't help that i'm completely overwhelmed with almost everything in my life right now. i've already let myself get behind in school. i've let being lonely kill my motivation. i have to get over it. when i'm around others it doesn't seem to bother me but the moment i walk through the apartment door the smile fades. there's nothing there to keep me smiling. needless to say, i miss husband. but its weird. i'm really not that upset that he's gone because i know he is doing a wonderful thing for our country. i just don't like being alone every day.