"you don't sound sad"

saturday i worked with a girl who hadn't worked in awhile. she hadn't seen me since jesse left so she didn't know he was gone. when i was telling her when he left and how long he'd be gone she interrupted me and said "you don't sound sad." to be honest she ticked me off. of course i am sad. of course i miss him. i am going to have days when all i want to do is lay in bed and cry but i don't think i should have to sound sad every time i talk about jesse. my life can't suddenly stop because he's not here. i am a christian...i believe that God can bring me the peace and strength i need to have happy days during this deployment. i don't have to hide in some black hole just because my husband is doing a wonderful thing for our country. i am so proud of him. yea i may have bad days and i will shed plenty of tears before he comes home again...but as a child of God i have plenty of reasons to smile too.