So as it turns out I am not healed. I have missed alot of training over the past month here and because of that i risk being refrad. refrad meaning removed from active duty. a few months ago i would have called that a blessing and been very happy about it. however over the past 2 months or so i have been attached to the greatest group of soldiers i have had the pleasure of working for. i dont really care about the other platoons or even the company as a whole. but being with 3rd platoon has really been a great experiance. over that past month and a half i have suffered a injury, they have yet to tell me for sure what it is however they lean towards pulled mucsle. because of this i have been unable to train with my unit or make the training i am required to to mobilize. on top of that my injury is barely any better, so i am likely to continue missing training or go on with training and risk worse injury. Needless to say i have not been a very happy person during this time fram. if you know me at all you will know i hate sitting around doing nothing. What i hate more then that is not being where i need to be.
Right now i have 2 places i belong, 1 at home with my wife and 2 her with this unit preparing to go over seas and serve my time for this country. the mission is a great mission and one i will beable to come back and say i have done something good for the country and the other country. over the past few weeks i have been forced to sit and watch as my squad went out to training and missions will i was left behind. even though the missions and training may have been extremely crappy when they came back i was not part of them. and over the time i am becoming left out and an outcast of the group. not that they are trying but qith each expreiance missed that is a story im not part of or even a grimes that i made it harder for them to succseed at. It really troubles me.
right now i am being faced with some very hard debates and very unsure where i stand on it. i hope i can talk to danielle and an answer can be reached. even then i have no idea where my path takes me. just wanted to let you see a small update in my life.
If you want to see the real reason why i am going to war i have a movie for you to witness. most of the things that this movie points out are ideas that i have already known and why i am here however it is the search for the answer that keeps me stead fast that i will remain in the military. the movie link is www.obsessionthemovie.com my spelling my abe a little off. if so go to yahoo and search for it. seeing it will likely open your eyes in a new way in how you look at our life here in america and the war we fight.
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your spelling sucks my love. i am so tempted to go in and edit your post. but i love you. i hope i helped you with your decision. please keep me updated.
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